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There’s a saying that goes “only speak if what you have to say will improve upon the silence”. And if *you* are reading this, I’d like to pass the message onto you. If the silence between us is completely bearable to you, then nothing you can say will make much of a difference. If you’re finding this easier and easier to do each day, then your words will serve no purpose in the bigger picture. If you are fully content with your recent life choices, then so be it.  Only if you know deep down that things don’t feel as right as you thought they’d be, then your words would be of some importance to the situation. But only then.  Only if I am wrong in believing that you’d rather leave this mess behind you entirely rather than try to be a better person and clean it up…. It's interesting, the way you work hard to hurt me. Im still trying to figure our whether thats a matter of you just hating me or you trying to hate me. Perhaps thats your way of adjusting to us n...

Its kind of fcked up isnt it. How all of sudden, someone wakes up and decided never to talk to you again. No reason, no explanation and no words said. They just leave you hanging like you never meant shit to them. What hurts more though, is how they make it look so easy... I've realized that a lot of things have changed. I've noticed my once close friends aren't so close anymore. Maturing as time goes by. Meeting new people, talking to new people. New changes have occurred but i guess that's life right? Not everything is perfect, not everything is the same. It just suck bcs i miss talking to a lot of people i wish i didn't grew apart from. when in fact, in a year i've lost many people. some i left on purpose and never looked back. some were taken from me, and i never said goodbye... After all, f rom all that I’ve lost and all that I still have, I am grateful bcs  i never knew what it was like to have a close group of friends until i met you...